Cold As Ice

I really wish Spring would arrive and stick around for awhile. Sunday, the temperature was a wonderful 73 degrees. Today, the high was projected at 45, but if it ever got there, it didn’t stay long. Every time I have looked at my phone, it has been in the 30-36 range, with colder temps due to the wind chill factor. It isn’t that I HATE the colder weather, in fact, it used to be my favorite time of year. Ever since heart surgery, cold weather hurts my sternum, where it was cut, my ankle, where the vein was taken, and well my knees and hips because I am getting older and because my poor joints have had to support my heavy frame for all these years.

Today was really bad. My hips and knees have hurt way down deep in the bone. Yesterday, I was in pain for another reason. One I haven’t even figured out just yet. Yesterday, I hurt like I did when I was having a gall bladder attack. Only, I no longer have a gall bladder. The pain happens every now and then for different reasons. It is intermittent and no one thing seems to set it off. It feel like a huge lead ball is located in the middle of my chest just below my sternum. It presses through to my spine and presses down on my ribs, making it hard to draw a breath. If anyone has any idea what this could be and how to avoid it, please let me know. Jenni has suggested a hiatal hernia. (Just for the record, if it is one, I think I will name it. Spell-check keeps wanting to change the name of hiatal to Latisha, which is kind of funny because that is one of my sons who I haven’t named, ex-girlfriends. it is almost apropos to name something that causes me such pain Latisha.)

Since I hurt yesterday and today, I let Jillian down. Yesterday, I rode my bike for 30 minutes. I was so tender and sore in my chest, I was afraid to bounce around a lot. Today, everything has ached so much, I have spent the day cuddled up in my recliner with my blanket. It’s ok, though. Jillian isn’t going anywhere and hopefully, tomorrow, I will be right as rain.

So, Sunday, I went to my friend Belle’s house for her annual Oscar Party. Every year, she has a party where she makes ballots and we all vote on who we think is going to win. We get one point for each of these we get correct. The winner gets a special prize. For those of you who don’t know me, I love movies. All types of movies. Every year, I make it my mission to watch every movie nominated for an award. I also watch each one that someone is nominated for in the Best and Supporting categories, as well as the documentaries, short and long and the short and long animations and the short films. Yeah, I guess I am a movie nerd. Anyway, I won by getting the most correct. I only missed three total– Best Make-Up, Best Live Short and Best Animated Short. I got the Swag Bag, which consisted of champagne, chocolates and strawberries. The chocolates will go in Alice’s lunch, the strawberries will be eaten and I am saving the champagne for my mini vacation with Mickey.

Anyway, the party was great. I ate some yummy food, and even though I had saved my calories, I still went over by ALMOST TWO THOUSAND. I liked to have died. It wasn’t the food that really was the killer. I had a load of fresh shrimp (healthy), my homemade light chicken salad with celery (healthy), some of Rapunzel’s homemade canapes which were fairly healthy, four mini pinwheel sandwich things, which weren’t too bad and three mini eclairs, again, not really too bad. Know what did me in? Five Lindor truffles at 70 calories each and the biggie? Two Mimosa’s. Mmmmmm Champagne and orange juice.

Mimosa’s aren’t something I have very often. In fact, I usually have them once a year–at the Oscar Party. They are extremely high in calories, but they make me feel so decadent and so rich. And trust me, the only time I feel rich is then. Mickey works hard and all my needs are met, and some of my wants. I am not gonna lie, though. We live paycheck to paycheck and there are some really tight weeks. Anyway, the Mimosa’s were delicious and Belle is excellent in putting them and the party together. I would say, Oscar season is probably my favorite.

In spite of over indulging in champagne and chocolates, I still managed to lose 2 pounds this week. I have now lost a total of 22.2 pounds in 51 days. I wish it were coming off faster, but it is coming off healthy, which means it has more of a chance to stay off. I am REALLY hoping the exercise will result in some muscles and will stop my skin from sagging horribly. Surgery to tuck it all back in is around 13,000.00. I don’t see me scraping that up. If the exercise doesn’t work, at least I will be a strong saggy, baggy elephant.

Any of you giving up something for Lent? I am not Catholic, but I try to give something up each year. This year, I am giving up using disposable plates and cups. We use them a lot because I do not have a dishwasher and I hate washing dishes. So, for the Lenten season, I will rejoice in my God while I wash my dishes.

That’s the thing about us Christian Southerners. We take the parts we like from each religion and kind of incorporate and make them our own. That’s also why I am going to enjoy pancakes tonight on Shrove Tuesday.

This entry has kind of been all over the place. Hey, it is a reflection of me. Where else can you read about movies, God, exercise, being fat and losing weight all in one place?

If you have any ideas on what is making me hurt, let me know. You don’t have to be a doctor or even play one on tv.

Pink ( Is My New Obsession)

I hope everyone had a great weekend. I know I did. Saturday, Alice had her friend Ann Marie over who requested that her new name be Rapunzel, so Rapunzel it is. Alice, Mickey, Rapunzel and I went over to my Aunt Daisy and Uncle Donald’s house to play board-games. Mickey gets every other weekend off and we often go over to my Aunt and Uncle’s house and play “SongBurst” and “Apples to Apples” and “Logo.” We have a great time and I get to spend time with my family.

Aunt Daisy and Uncle Donald have been VERY supportive of my journey. Aunt Daisy makes me unsweetened tea with lemon and provides a snack such as popcorn or chips or veggies and salsa. In fact, Uncle Donald asked if I had been craving anything. I admitted I had been craving a big juicy hamburger. Uncle Donald said if lean ground beef was used and the burger was grilled, then it shouldn’t be too bad. So, Thursday, we are going over there for supper and I am getting my hamburger!!!

Sunday, we all celebrated Eric’s Birthday. Ariel invited us all to a restaurant named “JimnNicks.” It’s a barbecue place. I was kind of worried because I am so incredibly picky over my barbecue. I was also worried about calories. I ended up with the smoked turkey breast plate with a salad of field greens tossed with a vinaigrette. That smoked turkey breast was off the chain. It was so good, I didn’t even mind not eating pulled pork. The portion was so generous, I brought over half of it home. There is enough for two good-sized sandwiches.

After lunch, we went back to Ariel’s and Eric’s. I had a small glass of wine and a small slice of the sinfully delicious Supreme Ganache cake from Publix. This cake is amazing. The really good news? I had breakfast at home, lunch out, wine and cake, and a light supper at home and still had 40 calories left to spare. I never feel deprived because this is NOT a diet. 

Today was weigh-in day. I lost one pound. I admit. I was a little sad. I want to see big losses like last week ALL the time. But, it doesn’t work that way. I am still very happy. I lost one complete pound. I didn’t gain. I have now lost 18 pounds. I really can’t tell or couldn’t tell at all, until I noticed my shorts are falling off. Alice took a picture of me in the same pose as a picture that was taken in January. When we put the pictures side by side, we could both tell. Before you know it, I will be able to use the restroom out in public, without kissing the floor. 

Today was also the day I started Week 2 of Jillian Michael’s “Ripped in 30.” It wasn’t as bad as I thought. It was a million times worse. I hurt. I thought I was going to puke about halfway through it. I just THOUGHT Week 1 was bad. I have a feeling I will be on Week 2 for 2 months. I was involuntarily making grunts and groans as I attempted to follow along with her. The last time I involuntarily made noises like that, I was in labor. Given a choice, I will gladly take labor again. I was back to using the coffee table to pull myself up off the floor back into standing position. 

I do have to say, the only reason I even have the energy to tackle Jillian, ( and I would gladly tackle her, except I know she would outrun me.) is because of my pink drink. I have been taking Plexus Slim since I started watching my diet and started exercising.  admit. I was VERY skeptical of it at first. Everywhere I looked on my Facebook, someone was promoting it and recruiting Ambassadors. First off, I do not have the time, inclination or even the mental prowess to be an Ambassador. Secondly, I was getting really bothered by some of the people who friended me JUST to promote Plexus products. 

I have a trusted friend, though. A friend I have known since I can remember. We went to church camp together We were in high school band together and we suffered through Geometry and Trig together. She casually mentioned she was an Ambassador and she would give me the chance to try the product. If I liked it, I could explore my options. She did assure me I was under no obligation to become an Ambassador myself. If I liked the product, I could get it through her. If I didn’t, no harm, no foul. 

I gave it a try. Did I feel full of energy and ready to take on the world? Well, no. BUT, I didn’t feel as tired as I had been feeling. I felt, well, normal. For me, as a heart patient that is a BIG deal. Did it suppress my appetite? Again, no, but that isn’t what it is designed to do. What it did was eliminate my sugar cravings. It made detoxing from my sweet tea and soda addiction much easier. 

Plexus Slim isn’t a miracle cure or a miracle diet aid. It was developed to regulate blood sugar, and for me it seems to be working. It doesn’t replace a meal. It doesn’t make me feel full. It doesn’t burn my fat. I do that by eating healthy and exercising. It works for me. Since it works for me,  am going to keep taking it. I got the approval of my doctor before I tried it. One day, before my order came in, I was without it. I could tell a difference. I didn’t feel normal anymore. 

I wanted to be upfront with you, my readers, as to what I am doing. Again, these are MY results. I have lost 18 pounds and I have also lost 2 inches from my bust, 2 inches from each of my upper arms, an inch and a half off my waist, 3 inches off my hips, 3 inches off my right thigh, and because I am weird, I have gained two inches on my left thigh. I have this mental picture of myself dragging around some hugely deformed thigh in about another month. Do I give all the credit to Plexus? No, not at all, I am the one suffering through Jillian. I am the one deciding to eat an apple for a snack and not a cupcake. But, I give Plexus credit for giving me back my pre-heart attack and pre-heart surgery life, simply by stabilizing me and giving me the energy I need in order to make wise choices. 

Disclaimer: I am NOT a Plexus Ambassador. I was not given any items for free from Plexus. If you choose to try Plexus, I get nothing at all. If you are interested in learning more, you can check out my friend’s site at http://jennirom.myplexusproducts.com/      She won’t push you to try it or become an Ambassador, but she will answer any questions if you have them. 

I also received nothing from the makers of any of the board games I mentioned. They are just fun. JimNNicks barbecue is another place I mentioned. No free barbecue, no money. Just a good lunch. Publix also gave me no money or any other type of compensation for mentioning their cake. 

Jillian does know who I a now, but she gave me nothing for buying her DVD or for kicking my fanny. 

 

 

Weigh In Day or Day 14

     I hope each of you will bear with me as I learn my way around WP. I’ve never had a blog before and I really need to sit down when I have a chance and learn how to make it look all pretty and stuff. After all, I want to keep your attention. Pure white space can look pretty boring. I also apologize for the extreme amounts of compound sentences you’ll find. I am so bad about talking without breathing and I figured my blog should be me. Am I right?

     I was mistaken yesterday when I said so far I lost 5.6 pounds. I was off by .2. It was late, I was tired and I was watching television. The first week, I actually lost 5.8 pounds. Today I found in the past week I lost……3.2 pounds!!! I am down 9 pounds in two weeks. I did a little happy dance. 9 pounds sounds like a lot, doesn’t it? And it is. I am proud. However, I know it is just coming off so rapidly right now because I am so overweight. After awhile, it will trickle down and I will lose less and less. And that my dear readers is when I will need you to cheer me on harder.

     To me, one of the most important parts of losing weight is tracking my food. My sister recommended http://www.myfitnesspal.com/ and it has been a lifesaver. Every food I put in my mouth is already in the database. I entered my current weight, my goal weight, how much I wanted to lose (2 pounds per week) and it told me how many calories I could consume a day. Every 10 pounds, it will lower my allotted calories. Which means I will soon have to give up some calories.

     I am going to be perfectly honest. My starting weight was 300 pounds. That is a lot for a 5 foot 3 inch frame to carry. Especially one with a bad heart. Currently, my allotted calories are 1430. I try not to hit it. I like to stay under by about 100 and so far I have not eaten ANY of my exercise calories. Each time I log, MFP subtracts what I have eaten and leaves me a balance. When I exercise, it adds calories back in a separate category. So far, I have not eaten any of those calories. BUT. They are there for special occasions. If you have a MFP, please feel free to add me. I am Beverly6799.

     My youngest daughter prefers https://www.loseit.com/  It’s not to my liking. I find the database less complete than MFP. I also dislike that it allows her to go under 1200 calories a day. MFP does not allow for that. The whole point is not to diet, but to learn the correct way to eat. That being said, it is better to track than not track.

     Tomorrow, I will tell you all about my torture exercise program. I know today was kind of boring. But please stick with me. I just have to spend the first few entries letting you know what and how I am doing this, so you will understand.

     Just think! If you know me personally, you can now say, “WOW! I knew she was fat, but I didn’t know she was THAT fat.” or “I thought she was fatter.” If you, too, are overweight, you can feel good about yourself by thinking either “If she can do it, I can do it.” or “I may be large but at least I’m no 300 pounder.” C’mon ladies (especially) don’t lie. You know we sit at the mall, a restaurant, at home, a bar, the store and judge our size by everyone else we see. If you’re skinny and beautiful then I hate you. Okay, not really, but I could probably eat you. Especially when you tell me you just plain forgot to eat. Anyway, THIS fat girl next door needs to get off her tush and do her exercises. Until tomorrow my friends!

Oh, I almost forgot. Disclaimer: Neither My Fitness Pal nor Lose It have given me any type of incentive to endorse or mention them. They don’t even know I exist. Also, both are available for Android or iPhone or PC.